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圓圓依舊渺無音訊，她留下的信中似乎是想表達，她又回了江南。
也許我不需要再擔心了，在江湖上走了這麼久，她應該會照顧好自己。
只是走的這樣的不明不白，我彷彿被冤枉了，想解釋，卻沒有機會。
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山寨裡不少酒，不少肉，唯一少的就是女人。
老乞丐不見了。他說去買酒，一去就再也沒有回來。
寨子外面人馬來來往往，熙熙攘攘的像是鬧市。可是再怎麼熱鬧，依舊與世隔絕。
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已是四月天，天氣晴朗的時候，萬里無雲，暖風陣陣。這古老而原始的叢林，散發着歷久彌新的氣息，像是翻開了古老的卷軸，清樸的味道似曾相識。
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步出大門，徑自走向高出的山坡，遠處渺茫着，層層疊疊，綠色此起彼伏。微風撩過，凌亂的頭髮飄向一側。霧氣從山谷升騰而起，慢慢捲到了腳下。
感覺到此刻圓圓就在身邊，彷彿一對神仙眷侶，踩在雲端，俯瞰着這曾經腳下踏過的路，欣賞着絕美的世間風景。
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哎~~~
這腳下的芸芸衆生、、、
也許圓圓想去雲南，正是爲了和我過這樣的生活吧、、、
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近處，遠處，幾乎每個山頭上，都有四五個巡邏的小嘍囉。提着棍棒，嘻哈的來回的張望。
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他還是他，一點都沒變。
我已經不是我，變得像他的老父親。
身後一聲長嘯，吼得山谷久久震顫着。
滿是嘆息，滿是惆悵。
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當時是衝動麼？可是又怎樣回到那個夜晚，去仔細思考？
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人在江湖，生不由己。
所做下的事，不需要理由，更不需要解釋。
解釋最大的作用是寬慰自己的心，即便是假的，聽了也會莫名的舒坦。
這就是人的通病。
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他是我的伯樂。
風洛江雪北國春，北國風光四時新；
爲求明年花香溢，今朝不辭讀書勤；
天人親點徵名將，名將欲求盈雪深；
雪深猶有輕蹄馬，只爲城中識馬人。
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計通南北，兵無東西，是爲了新的天下，而後爲了他的成君之夢。
我，
戰功無數，一人之下，萬人之上。
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“將軍，我們都敗了、、、”
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這麼多年不見，將軍也老了。
依舊是方臉，絡腮鬍子。
只是更加的削瘦，鬍子也是白花花的。
手上抓的那把震劍，劍鞘都已經鏽跡斑斑。
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“這麼多年不見，你還是沒變，還是一身的書生氣！”
他的聲音都顯的蒼老。
在這清秀的山頭，我們就像是躬耕的老者，看着下面，一片片的浮雲。
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昨日正在質問那老乞丐，到底是誰救了我，他正在尷尬之際，背後冒出個熟悉個聲音：“是我！”
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不錯，正是他！
闊別多年，那個曾經對我恩重如山的將軍！
-------------------李自成！
當年正是他在意氣之年，起兵東南，直指中原！
三日下三城，闖王李自成。
大街小巷，兒童唱的歌謠都有他的名字。
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就是他，在我躊躇滿志之時，拉我上馬，讓我一施才華！
就是爲了春秋大夢，放棄我的圓圓，隨他北上，不圖榮華，但求青史留名！
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還是他，
闊步入軍帳，軍機尚未成，
虎眼先識羊，羊已爲人物，情多自言傷。
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卻是我，
執扇入京府，領惡做殺戮，
櫻花落雪夜，相逢故人處。
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明，崇禎十七年。
闖王李自成進京與明軍駐守山海關將領吳三桂秘密談判，雙方立場不一，談判不歡而散。
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闖王回到帳中，悶悶不樂，我爲將軍心腹，耳語告知，才曉：
“將軍是看上了吳三桂家的舞女？”
“非也，絕不是舞女。”
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“宗敏，這事就交在你手上，我可是爲這事茶不思，飯不想，影響了這進京行程。”
“將軍請放心，你只管登基大業。”
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闖王手下，能人異士皆來自江湖。我奉命重金尋來幾個靠殺人賺錢的江湖混子。
每個江湖中的人，不論本事大小，都自封綽號。
而殺手這稱呼，太擡舉這羣殺人不見血的魔鬼了。
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只是將軍囑託，自己親口允諾。
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京城的四月，櫻花剛剛開到盛季，美的讓人流連往返。
吳三桂的府邸，臨近皇宮，在偏北的一隅。府內，幽徑曲通，有花有樹。
我像只靈巧的燕子，翻起，落下，又消失不見、、、
夜行衣給了我足夠的安全感，我就當世人都看不見我，在這黑的如漆的夜裡。
身後跟着的，如狼似虎。潛入這安謐的將軍府。
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之後，噩夢之源。
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闖王見我一去不復返，得知我已攜圓圓逃離京都。一面派人尋查我的下落，一面準備進京，舉行登基大業。
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吳三桂得知此事，大怒之極，怒開關門，引清軍長驅直入。
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武林中，一時間結下幾樁仇怨。忘恩負義之說，盛傳於江湖。
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人人得我而誅之，唯有碎屍萬段，方能解世人之恨！
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再之後，一切如此。
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“這麼多年，你過的怎麼樣？”
將軍老了，說話再也沒有了以前那麼威嚴，甚至有些遲鈍。
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後來在不斷的逃亡途中，聽說李自成進京不到百天，便被清軍設伏，率部逃往西部。
自此，漢人的天下被夷人所佔，大明王朝，改姓了愛新覺羅。
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“將軍說笑了，這麼多年，生不如死。”
我淒涼的笑了，笑的柔風都繞道離開。
世界都被仇恨淹沒了，有的人放下了，便活在了另一條軌道上。有的人沒放下，跌落了無底深淵。
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只是後來沒了李自成的任何消息，有傳聞，他被朝廷抓住處死了，還有的說他皈依了佛門。
沒想到，他在這裡佔山爲王。
看樣子，活的並不快活。
“我在這裡生活了有幾年了，這麼多年跟着我的弟兄都老了，剩幾個殘兵，看這裡景色不錯，且住了下來。”
“你要是想留下來，就在我這裡湊合着過吧。”
將軍依舊是那個性格，能給我的，全都給我。
難道他不記恨我半路擄走了他看上的女人？
不！是他看上了我的女人！這纔是錯！
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“你不想將我碎屍萬段麼？”
我像是對着風說，對着自己說。
“這麼多年了，你不是過的也不好麼！”
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有人曾懷疑過時間的力量，知道有一天，他忘記了他人生中最最重要的事，才發現，時間真的是可以撫平一切，磨滅一切！
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我覺得這樣對將軍不公平，這麼多年來，我給他留下了一個迷，轉眼消失。
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“我給你講講我和圓圓的故事吧、、、”
“她叫圓圓、、、、、、、”
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我不知道身後有沒有人在聽，我好像在自言自語，講着這麼多年的故事，講着講着，眼淚就流了下來，只是，男人的眼淚，從未連成過線。
自己都不知道，這麼多年，就這樣夾帶着一個心愛的女人，就這樣過來了。
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講到最後都不知道快樂存在在哪裡，彷彿只有痛苦。
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“將軍，假如你看上的是任何一個比圓圓還漂亮的女人，那該多好，我們都可以活在自己的世界裡，夢想成真！”
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陽光從山腳一路趕來，驅趕的晨霧無處藏身，大小樹木慢慢露出腦袋，吞吐着這溫柔的光線。
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“那是很冷的山海關，一身貂裘的她 ，流波婉轉，美不可言。我想我可以寧願爲她放棄整個天下！”
將軍毫無了昔日鐵馬利刃的暴戾，言語溫柔的可人。
“因爲她，這麼多年來，沒一個女人再能給我這種感覺，你看我現在，這山上可見有一個女人？”
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到底是誰的錯？
把三個人的夢拉扯到一起，又朝各個方向扔了出去、、、扔的遙不可及、、、
“他現在人呢？”
“聽說也來到了長沙城內？”
我可以感受到背後有一雙眼睛突然放了光，久違的興奮！
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獨孤門聖還在爲他賣命，或者只是同病相連。
這才知道，他們都不殺我，原來各有目的。
突然有些失望、、、
或許是我想多了。
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“城中在鬧瘟疫，我打算帶她離開，不料，卻在前幾天，她獨自離去了、、、、”
“我在城南尋找，不料被守衛所截，後被你和乞丐相救，行到此處。”
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那日，在城門前，突然飛過來的兩支箭，射翻了迎面撲來兩個兵衛。
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救我的人是他，其實也有獨孤門聖，或者說，他們本身就是一夥。
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“城南並沒有鬧瘟疫，只是有幾個販藥的商人死在了不知名的藥上，隨後，有人便開始謠傳。”
“爲什麼會這樣？”
這也是我一直想要弄明的事。
“這是個陰謀、、、、”
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